Say You Will... Eventually?

Something I hate more than anything in the world is when someone says to me "You're such a girl." Please no. "You're a girl" is one thing "SUCH a girl" is another. I am not SUCH a girl. SUCH a girl consists of things like crying, and wanting a boy to love me in public, hate outdoors, crying, crying and more crying. Such a girl contains clean, organized rooms, decorated with cutesy flowers, matching bedding, and tons of cute heels. Such a girl loves to shop all day, and would if they could. They care about every hairstyle, outfit and make up product out there. Such a girl wants a boy to tell her how much he loves her, loves the cheesy love stuff, and cries when she's happy. I am not "such a girl".

I want honesty. I want to be real. I believe in being true to myself. Here's how it is, I have my girlish attributes. I desire to be married, when love is real. I LOVE boys. Let's be real here, no doubt about that. I hate their crap. I hate the words "I love you" when they literally think they are in love you. Hello? We are in high school, no one here, except maybe the teachers, understands what love is. I think PDA is disgusting. No one likes to watch that, only in the movies. I love the cute love things they say in the movies, but if  a boy said that to me, honestly? A Cliche? I am a cliche to you? Yeah, thanks, find another girl who wants to be a cliche. Not me. I don't want to hear that I am sweet, and nice, and beautiful if you don't sincerely mean it.  I don't want to be your "everything", you have a mission to go on. Come on, I am seventeen. I don't want your crap. I can't handle that right now.

Fortunately, I don't have to. Thank goodness for that.

I'm a sucker for love, when it is the right time.

I want this. It's real stuff.

The song "Marry Me" is one of the cutest most sincere songs I know of. That's the kind of stuff I will be ready to hear... in a while.

Forever can never be long enough for me

Feel like I've had long enough with you

Forget the world now, we won't let them see

But there's one thing left to do...

Now that the weight has lifted

Love has surely shifted my way

...Marry me today and every day

Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe

Say you will, say you will

Together can never be close enough for me

Feel like I am close enough to you

You wear white and I'll wear out the words I love you

And you're beautiful

Now that the wait is over

And love and has finally shown her my way

Promise me you'll always be happy by my side

I promise to sing to you when all the music dies

Marry me today and every day

Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe

Say you will, say you will

(I hope someday I will find a boy to put up with my crap. That would be really nice. Eventually.)