Wednesday, March 31, 2010

love lifts us up where we belong, where eagles fly on a mountain high

"Come What May"
Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything

Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side

Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you I love you until the end of time
Come what may come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may come what may
I will love you oh i will love you

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Come what may come what may
I will love you until my dying day

This song is from the movie "Moulin Rouge". I just love it. It is so pretty and well said.

DC in 5 days. :) That is definitely something to smile about.

Life is good. Well, not bad. Morp will be fun. Spring Break=No Worries and Happy life!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Song of the Day "Little Wonders" By Rob Thomas

Let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you know
the hardest part is over?
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind
if it's me you need to turn to
we'll get by,
it's the heart that really matters in the end

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now

in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain,
still remain

Monday, March 29, 2010

Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?
Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts.
So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess,
And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.

You fasten my seatbelt because it is the law.
In your two ton death trap I finally saw.
A piece of love in your face that bathed me in regret.
Then you drove me to places I'll never forget.

And we are so fragile,
And our cracking bones make noise,
And we are just,
Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

Oh Ingrid Michaelson song of the day is "Breakable" I want to do something clever so I might do like a song of a day lyrics just in super small font. Just so you can get a taste of what flavor of music I totally love.

So other then that new thing. Today was good-ish. School was whatever, I have no homework! YAY!!! (except reading, but who does that anyway) DC is almost a week away and I have discovered I really can't see.

My most recent facebook status discusses this issue as well. My glasses have disappeared. It is definitely no bueno. And so has my camera charger. I am in so much trouble! I need that stuff so badly! AH!!!

Moral of any story is, "Life sucks and then you die"

Moral of this blog is to vent out everthing.

8 days to Heaven. Can't freaking wait.

The End.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

You Bug Me

Don't you hate it when you were right all along and all you want to do is say I told you so?

Don't you hate it when you care more about the person then to say I told you so, or thats what you get?

Don't you hate it when you spend hours worrying about someone, trying to figure out what you can do for them but in return you get that you are a mean person just because you didn't quite do it right?

Don't you hate it when you ask someone how they are and all they say is "I don't want to talk about it" but if they ask you they EXPECT an answer?

Don't you hate it when people think your business is theirs but they won't even tell you what the is up with their life?

Don't you hate it when all you can do is be angry with someone for just acting stupid about life?

Don't you hate it when the world screams at you for doing everything WRONG and all you are trying to do is be a good person?

Don't you hate it when people try to tell you how you should handle things in your life when in reality you can handle things however the heck you want?

Don't you hate it when someone freaks out at you for no good reason?

Don't you hate it when life gets you down and it feels like its never going to lift you up?

Don't you hate it when the weeks don't go by fast enough?

I sure do.

And this is MY life.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Life comes at you fast, but not when you want it to-

I just want to be in Washington DC.

All I want is it to be April 6.

I want to get out of this town.

I want to be free.

I can't wait.

You know that feeling, when you want something, but you can't have it just yet. I feel like a child waiting for Christmas, or a mom, waiting for that phone call from her son on a mission. The anticipation is killing me. The closer it gets, the harder it is for me to wait. It is all I think about. I just really love the people I am going with. (especially Taylor the Latte Boy, and Cariel) AHHHHHHHHHHHH.... I can't wait.

Oh yeah, Taylor Swift wrote another story of my life. The thing with her is she writes songs every girl can relate to. Either they feel the way she does, wants to feel the way she does, knows someone who can relate to. Honestly, Taylor sings all the songs that every girl thinks, and says how most girls feel better then they can explain. Yeah she is great. Taylor is somehow, every girls best friend. She can do it all. I love her.

My current song is "The Other Side of the Door". Yeah, I love it.

In the heat of the fight
I walked away,
Ignoring words that you were saying,
Trying make me stay.
I said, "This time I've had enough."
And you've called a hundred times,
But I'm not pickin' up.
'Cause I'm so mad, I might tell you that it's over.
But if you look a little closer

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.

Me and my stupid pride
I'm sittin' here, alone.
I'm going through the photographs,
Staring at the phone.
I keep going back over
Things we both said
And I remember the slammin' door,
And all the things that I misread.
So baby you know everything
Tell me why you couldn't see
That when I left I wanted you to
Chase after me? Yeah


And I scream out the window,
"I can't even look at you, I don't need you,"
But I do, I do, I do.
I say, "There's nothing you can say
To make this right again, I mean it,
I mean it"

What I mean is...

I said, "Leave," but baby all I want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.

With your face, and your beautiful eyes
And the conversation
With the little white lies.
And the faded picture
Of a beautiful night
You carried me from your car
up the stairs
And I broke down cryin'
Was she worth this mess?
After everything and that little black dress
After everything I must confess,
I need you

I said, "Leave," but baby all I really want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of th
e door.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Our One Minute Movie for English!

Made by: Mayson Astle, Mady Whitehead, Lauren Faber, Stanford Mcsomethinglongandhardtospell, Jessica Atkinson

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Just Too Classic

This made my day. Pretty great. So if you ever wondered how dinosaurs got extinct. Don't ask science. This is the most perfect answer ever.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Movie Review?......Ok!!!

So last night me and some friends (who are great must I add) decided to watch two scary movies.

The first one was called "Darkness Falls"

It all started when Sicily told us that it was about the tooth fairy. The tooth fairy who goes around and kills kids. Basically, the beginning was so freaky. This boy lost his last tooth and peeked and the tooth fairy lady came and she tried to kill him but he went in the light. (Oh yeah, no dark for the tooth fairy, she got burned in a fire and is sensitive to light) She did manage to kill his mother and everyone thought he had killed his mother. So they sent him away. -- I forgot to mention the part where this girl just breaks into his room before the tooth fairy lady comes. He asks her to the dance, they kiss, and she says she already told her mom to drive them. They were like 10 . It was weird. Any way, 12 years later the boy with the dead mom and tooth fairy lady going after him, lives in a house with light all over and he takes all these drugs. Of course the girl has a brother who just lost his last tooth and peeked so fairy lady is going after him.

Basically, yeah the whole movie goes on and they are trying to stay out of the dark. Of course it got lame the second the boys got there. They thought we were freaks! That movie ended and Ben predicted the whole thing so it kinda ruined the ending. hahaha. Oh well.

Then we wanted to watch "The Grudge".

So Lydia, Josh and I went to my house to get it. So that movie was... funny. I had seen it so it was not scary and boys usually don't think movies are scary. So me and the boys were just laughing at Lydia and CF freaking out the whole time. Oh that was great. I am pretty sure Lydia broke Rickey's ear. Ok seriously "The Grudge" is like the funniest movie ever. Some blue asian making a weird noise to kill you, pretty strange. It's funnier if you've seen Scary Movie 4. Or when Josh just keeps saying the funniest things.

Overall, it was a pretty great time last night. Being half scared/ half laugh, it was great. I love my friends. That was definitely a party. I know, we are cool, all of this was at the Mayor's house. :)

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Ever feel like you don't belong??

This is my great depression picture. It kinda reminds me my mood the last week.
I feel like my life is upside down.
Me and Lizi sometimes go to the Bean Museum. I like Lizi. She is great.
Lately, nothing feels right. I just am hardly comfortable in my own shoes. I am not mad, or sad. But I am not happy either. I wouldn't even call it content. The best word to describe me is ok. Yeah, I am ok. Life isn't bad. I have many good things going for me. My house is turning out because of all the hard work my mom puts into it. I love Lizi! She is super. My social life is 50/50. I am still good friends with Mady and Louie. But I just feel so distant from every one else. Christian Paiva talks to me again. That really makes me happy. :) Some people are just confusing....... People who things technically are going great with, it just feels wrong. Something feels... OFF. I guess thats a good way to put it. I just am so confused lately. I just want change. I have just realized there are so many places and people in this world, I am sick of Provo. I have lived here for a long time, a majority of my life. I've driven on the same roads. I look out the window and I see the same old mountains. I deal with the same 1000 people daily, mostly narrowed down to probably around 150-200 that I see EVERYDAY. There isn't anything wrong with the mountains, the streets, the people or Provo. I am just sick of it. I am ready for college. I can't wait to get out of Utah. Funny, my whole life I have wanted to go to BYU. But I just don't think it is for me. Maybe after a few years of getting out of Provo. As much as I am ready to get out and be independent, I am terrified. I have no idea how life really works. Money is stressful, then trying to do it alone, oh my. But overall, I just need change. There is a world of opportunity that I don't really live in. Basically, today I really feel like a troubled teen. I am so confused about life. I am kinda emotionless. I don't know exactly what my problems are. Hopefully, things will change soon. Summer is only a term away. Thank goodness. :)

This has been a diary of a troubled teen.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

My dearest Lauren

Thanks for feeding me lunch today lauren. I really love it when you do! Your house always has yummy food to eat. Thats my story of the moment. The End

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Might I Just Add... I LOVE MY FRIENDS

Seriously, I have the very best friends ever. I love them SO very much. They are so great. I feel like I don't say it enough. It's funny, sometimes you can't spend a lot of time with them because life happens, but it doesn't mean I love them any less. For instance, I haven't seen or heard from Wendy, McKann, or Paige in eternity and its so sad, but I absolutely love them still! Then I have friends like Lauren and Emily, I see them both at school a ton but I hardly ever get to hang out with them because our schedules don't fit very well. And I have Lizi, who is an amazing friend/sister. I want her to come around more. Then I have Mady Head, Louie (Sarah Thayne) and Lydia who I hang out with all the time, and I have half my classes with Lyd and Head, so obviously I see them. For instance, last night Me, Mady, Sarah and Lydia hung out at Mady's house and that was seriously so much fun. Well we took our pictures for digital photo. Then we sat in Mady's room for awhile and the only thing they wanted to do was go to Gold's Gym and swim. GUESS WHO DOESN'T HAVE A GOLD"S GYM PASS? hahahaha SO... They went and I just sat in Mady's room and talked on the phone to Jake for like an hour, then I fell asleep. That was probably my favorite part of the night. You'd think I'd be mad that I didn't go with then and they just left me, but I really didn't care at all. So that was great. Thank you Lydia for donating your phone to me because my was broken. I am really happy you did that for me. So then they came back and I still had a headache, oh thats another reason why I didn't go. Mady had no idea where her medicine cabinet was... seriously. But Thankfully, Louie knows Mady's house better and brought me EXCEDRIN! Seriously, that was SO great. Then Lydia left and I suddenly had all this energy. Me and Louie stayed up til 3:20 AM! We were just talking about life and eating Mady's food. That was so great. I seriously love my friends. Last night was great, just like most any night with them. They are so great! I just hope to see some of my disappearing friends soon, because I miss them! THE END!

PS. Max said, yes, and so I am going to Morp! Yay!

This has been a diary of a troubled teen.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

March March March......

This is the month of year that never goes by just fast enough. March has mood swings like none other. Some days are spring, some days are winter. I just wish it would make up its mind. In March, at my school, we have no breaks at all. We have school, everyday, all day. No early outs, or days off! AHH Crazy! I dedicate this month to Student Government! (Seriously) Almost every Saturday we have something for it! It is intense! ALL GETTING READY FOR THE BEST WEEK OF MY LIFE.... WASHINGTON DC!!! Oh my I cannot wait at all for it! It will be worth every minute I spend working to get money for it! (Let's hope that works out good...) I also have 6 more events to go to by the end of the term... stressed much? I just know I am going to want to spend a moment for myself with some of my good friends again. Lets hope that happens. On a good note, at least this month is busy so it will hopefully go by fast! Here is what I've got going for me until Washington DC.....

March 5- I have to do this photo shoot with Head, Louie and Lydia for Digital Photo. Hopefully that will turn out way sweet
March 6- Walkie turns 7! Can you believe it? Probably, but I can't. I also have this service thing for student government
March 8- Spring Concert, must go for event
March 12/13- I have to go to Nationals so I have an event for StudGov, also... the 13 I have a garage sale and I have to work at my neighbors wedding thing.
March 18- Culture Night @ Timpview (Student Government thing again :) )
March 19- END OF TERM!!!!!
March 24- Maddox turns 6!
March 27- Car Wash for fundraising
April 2- MORP, hopefully Max will say yes :)

Yes, Then I have to figure out all my events, which is stressful. But after everything I have a feeling this will feel good to be done and I will feel accomplished. I am so excited for April that I hope this goes by fast enough! Spring is coming. I just cannot wait for summer. Summer is so great. I have a feeling its going to be here so fast. YAY!!!!

THE END. I am done blogging about nothing.

This has been a diary of a troubled teen.