Saturday, April 30, 2011

all my thoughts crowd my head

Happy 200th Post! It's been a long week. Don't you think?

I think I am ready for summer. I leave in 32 days, one month from tomorrow! Ahh. I can't believe it. I can't believe I really am going to be gone. Eric, the guy I am living with, sent me a picture on Facebook of a pass to "Bretton Woods" the country club they go to,  complete with: swimming pool, basketball, volleyball, 18 hole golf course, tennis courts, and soccer field. That's when I wish I could take all my friends to Maryland with me so they can experience it. I have one goal- I am going to go golfing this summer. I have wanted to go for so long! I have access to one a course all summer. I also would LOVE to go to a major league baseball game. The Martinis' are "Nationals" fans. I bet they will take me. :) They are such cool people, and I have only talked to them over Facebook. I can't wait. 

Kat, I have an idea. When we are living in the east coast we should get together and party. Good plan huh?

Senior year is going to be a party. Congrats to the Stud Gov winners. I am next year's Executive Vice President. I am also excited for Yearbook. I will be the Editor -in-Chief next year. Overall, both will be a party. Also, a lot of hard work. But worth that will be rewarding and worth it. 29. Check.

My mom just left for work and said "See ya later alligator" and answered to herself "In a while crocodile" 

I just looked at the weather for the next week. Apparently it's going to be in the 60's all next week. That would be a dream. 

Here's to 200 blog posts. Mostly about nothing. (or boys haha) My fellow followers, I love you all. I enjoy you guys. The "thumbs ups" or comments make me feel loved. hahaha. Technology. How come we feel good if we get a "like" or "comment" or "thumbs up" or "wall post" or "text message" or "email"?  (Ok not sure why I wrote each word in " ")   It's just a computer, or phone telling us something. It doesn't mean anything-- but it does.

The world is a funny place. Isn't it?

Thursday, April 28, 2011

it's a love story, baby just say yes.

In honor of the Royal Wedding,  I bring you a story of true real love. Truly and Completely.  I am-- what some people call-- a hopeless romantic. I want to believe that my love life will be the cutest story there is out there. I have dreams of my husband telling me how much he loves me. (And telling others too) The kind of love story that my children giggle at, the kind of story every girl in the world wishes they had. I just want it. So badly. I guess we will see. But for now, I HIGHLY recommend reading this story President Uchtdorf told in Young Women Meeting last year.

"One Sunday the missionaries brought a new family to our meetings whom I hadn’t seen before. It was a mother with two beautiful daughters. I thought that these missionaries were doing a very, very good job. I particularly took notice of the one daughter with gorgeous dark hair and large brown eyes. Her name was Harriet, and I think I fell in love with her from the first moment I saw her. Unfortunately, this beautiful young woman didn’t seem to feel the same about me. She had many young men who wanted to make her acquaintance, and I began to wonder if she would ever see me as anything but a friend. But I didn’t let that deter me. I figured out ways to be where she was. When I passed the sacrament, I made sure I was in the right position so that I would be the one to pass the sacrament to her. 

When we had special activities at church, I rode my bike to Harriet’s house and rang the doorbell. Harriet’s mother usually answered. In fact, she opened the kitchen window of their apartment on the fourth floor and asked what I wanted. I would ask if Harriet would like a ride to church on my bicycle. Harriet’s mother would say, “No, she will be coming later, but I will be happy to ride with you to church.” This wasn’t exactly what I had in mind, but how could I decline? And so we rode to church. I must admit I had a very impressive road bike. Harriet’s mother sat on the top tube bar just in front of me, and I tried to be the most elegant bicycle driver over roads of rough cobblestone.

Time passed. While beautiful Harriet was seeing many other young men, it seemed that I could not make any headway with her.

Was I disappointed? Yes.
Was I defeated? Absolutely not!

Actually, looking back I recognize that it doesn’t hurt at all to be on good terms with the mother of the girl of your dreams.

Years later, after I had finished my training as a fighter pilot in the air force, I experienced a modern miracle in Harriet’s response to my continued courting. One day she said, “Dieter, you have matured much over these past years.” I moved quickly after that, and within a few months I was married to the woman I had loved ever since I first saw her. The process hadn’t been easy—there were moments of suffering and despair—but finally my happiness was full, and it still is, even more so."

That's what I want. I want to be a girl that is worth the fight. One time Fidel Monterro (yes, our vice principal, he is in my ward so that's why I know this) said that he was the luckiest and the he got the biggest catch in the world.

I just want to be someone's biggest catch.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

find a place where we escape

Have you ever had a thought? (I sure hope so.)
I mean, the kind of thought that controls your brain and suffocates all other thoughts? It takes over and spreads like wild fire. 

Sometimes it's a thought that about wishing and day dreaming. It's not a bad thought. It's just an unrealistic thought. The kind of thought that in reality, it only happens in the movies. (or the Ensign)

It's the thought that makes you consider your daily actions and future decisions a little more carefully than you would before. 

It really is one of those "What if" kind of thoughts. The kind that sometimes you just wish that for a moment it could truly happen. 

It's a silly thought really. A pointless thought. But a fun thought. A harmless thought. (Harmless until you start believing in the thought)

And when you can't stop thinking, you have 2 things to do. Write it down, so you can laugh about it in years to come.  Then be grateful that Jeffrey R. Holland exists. 

"Trust in God and believe in good things to come"

Monday, April 25, 2011

when will my life begin?

I love that I am just writing this outside. It is warm enough to bring my laptop outside and look around at the world I live in. 
Well now what? I am ready for summer/senior year. Elections don't really matter, Prom/Dances are over for the year-- now I am just waiting. Waiting for Maryland. Waiting for senior year. Waiting for something new and exciting. 

I remember the day my brother left for his mission. He stood in our driveway, looking at the mountains as if he would never see them again. His destiny was to leave his family, friends, and the comfort of his home and social life to serve the people of Maryland. And now, almost two years later,  I look at the same mountains, with almost the same destiny ahead of me.  The closer it gets, the more I think I will miss it. I am going to miss the mountains, my family, my friends, being comfortable, and my social life. 

Leaving makes me wonder where the next years of my life will lead. I can't help but wonder what college will be like, who I will make as new friends, who I will choose to marry. Prom was the day I dreamed of my whole life, and it's already over. I think I will be graduated in a blink of an eye, and married in 5 minutes. Honestly, where will my life lead? Sometimes I think I know, or have an idea. And others, it just is a complete mystery. Well, all in due time, and I will know. 

5 weeks. 5 weeks til we say goodbye. 

That's a scary thought.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

now you're beside me and look how far we've come

And the Unicorn went to Prom . . . I mean the magical field. And it was amazing.

this is me appearing from no where. hahaha 
prom :) 

you gotta love this one.

Well, I have talked about it enough on here, I am sure you want to, if you even read my blog haha, hear a little bit about my night.

He picked me up and all my family stared at him as we drove away. The worst part was over. He faced my mom, and she didn't say anything awful like she has on previous dances.

Corsage before... 
Then we went to dinner at Magelbys. Yum. Kristen and I fell in love with our adorable waiter. He was such a good looking human being. I ordered something that wasn't even on the menu, and somehow Kat got my food, she didn't seem to notice. That was hilarious. I was the only person on the table to order an actual drink. That was embarrassing. So Jake and I decided to share it so I didn't look like a fool. We ate our food, as Kat went "dateless" because Chase forgot his debit card at home. That was funny. :)

Corsage after. It struggled. 
Then we went to the dance. We were super early. We took our pictures, danced to "Friday" twice, we partied. The dance was so great. I loved it. (Even though we hardly danced) We were on the side little area dancing alone. It was so funny. We danced so ugly on purpose. Then Tim and Andrea came by, they were hilarious too. We did the whole Promenade thing. That wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

After we went to Chase's house. We ate ice cream, chatted, played a game-- it was great. My group was hilarious. They were fun. Everyone was so pretty and gorgeous last night. I can't get over how good everyone looked.

Overall, it was a pretty great night. :) Thanks to Jake, my group, and all the people who helped me prepare, mentally and physically.  hahaha I definitely couldn't have done any of it alone.

my mom told us to turn around. not exactly sure why :) 

yep ladies, that's my date.
And we were off. . . 

That's all folks. 

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

you wanna be a loser like me

 The unicorn almost wants to go to the field. almost.

But for now, let me tell you about my day! 
  • Geology- PROJECT! Domination
  • Drama- read script, sat and listened to Brower, gotta love that man
  • Seminary-planned my lesson with Malcolm, gonna be SWEET. I love Spencer W. Kimball
  • World Civ- Oops I forgot to go, so instead
  • Mall- Baseball boys. Yeah, I went to the mall with the baseball boys. It was splendid. 
  • Stud Gov Meeting- I decided to run for executive vp. no one is running against me. STUD GOV HERE I COME!!!! SO PUMPED.
  • Temple- Sarah and I went to the temple. Record time. We were in and out in 25 minutes. I love the temple so much. :)
  • Babsysitting- eh, it was babysitting
  • Young Women- sat and talked to the Shan Dizzile. 
  • Oh and I think I might have (not really me though honestly) made CF's day. Just maybe :) 
Now I sit in my room and blog. But really, do you really want to know what made my day? 

MY GLASSES CAME! Yep. Those are REAL. I did just buy the most nerdy glasses ever. I love them. Don't hate. :) 
It's kinda like a dream come true

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

think twice, that's my only advice

Once upon a time there was a unicorn. The unicorn dreamed of the giant magical field that it's sisters and brothers and friends talked about for years. The thing about the giant magical field is that you can get there if you are invited by a leprechaun because they have the magic pixie dust and golden coins. So the unicorn dreamed and dreamed of going to the magical field. One day, a leprechaun passed it's way and asked if the unicorn wanted to go to the magical field. The unicorn leaped in joy. and was excited to go to the the field with the leprechaun. The leprechaun gave the unicorn one month to prepare for the magical field. There were certain  requirements necessary to enter the field. The unicorn must gather 12 tinker fairies, collect 17 flowers from the garden, and sing for the princess in the castle. The unicorn prepared and prepared and finally the week of the gathering to the magical field came. The unicorn was almost ready, despite 1-2 fairies, and 3-4 flowers, but lost the deep desire it once had to go to the magical field. The leprechaun that invited her was a nice leprechaun. The magical field was still a very enchanted magical field. Nothing had changed in the month, except for the unicorn. The unicorn cried and cried. Were all it's expectations going to be met? It had been to fields before, but never a magical field. So the unicorn didn't know what to do. It talked to it's other unicorn friends who were going to the magical field. They were excited and told it to be excited. But the unicorn wouldn't listen. It wanted to, but it couldn't convince itself that the magical field would be all that good. 

What is wrong with the unicorn? What would you say to cheer up the unicorn? 

Want to know what I would say? I would say "Hey unicorn, don't you know that not all of the unicorns get invited by the leprechauns? Some leprechauns don't have enough pixie dust, or gold coins. Be happy you are going!" 

And maybe, just maybe-- the unicorn would listen. 

Sunday, April 17, 2011

everything looks perfect from far away

On an island as big as the moon, we dance to melodies that bring us back to the age of the clock. We sing to music that is as loud as our ears. We laugh along to the noises of thunder. We hear the beats of our heart like the wave of the ocean. We dream of fireflies at midday and sunsets at midnight. We whisper secrets as loud as the elephants roar. We jump to the rhythm of a clarinet while we skip to the clarinets tune. We paint the sky and color the trees. We pray to the heavens for a piano to play us soft hymns of joy and laughter.

"True it may seem like a stretch but it's thoughts like this catch my troubled head when you're away when I am missing you to death

... and we wake up, we find that reality is nothing but a hopeless dream. 

Saturday, April 16, 2011

30 days in one night

 So something I keep seeing is the 30 day challenge. A common thing I have noticed is that no one actually wants to do it in 30 days, so why not in one night?! I know, I am genius.

Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.

Today I woke up to my little sister. "Mom left! She said she will be back in an hour" LIES. Mother was gone at work all day. So I babysat. Wasn't too bad. We rode our bikes to the park, had a picnic and anything. Then, I made my mom feel bad for me, so she took me to Bajio. :) Yum. After, a group of us went to the park, played Ultimate (my team rocked!) That was fun. Then Alex Burdge's house to watch HP7!!! In the middle, Sarah and I left to Days. Loub is such a great friend. (might I just add). Back to Alex's finish the movie and do this whole fun thing.

Day 2 – A photo of something you ate today.

Day 3 – A picture of somewhere you've been to.
DC, can't wait to go back!

Day 4 – A picture of you and your friends.

Right now, I miss my XC friends, so  I chose them. I have lots of friends :) hahaha ok i am not that cocky, but I just chose this crowd. :) 

Day 5 – Your ideal first date.

Been there, done that. Ok, ideal date? Once upon a time, I blogged about a dream date. You can go read it yourself.  For a quick way of knowing what I like. Steak and potatoes. That right there makes my date dreamy if I have those things.

Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
 Cute eh? 

Day 7 – Your dream wedding.
Clearly I am not doing anything too specific here. In the temple, to the right man, who will love me for time and all eternity no matter what. That's my dream wedding.
Day 8 – A song to match your mood.
Somewhere Only We Know- Keane/Glee (I love the Glee version!!)
Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
See above, the last thing I ate. :)
Day 10 – A photo of your favorite place to eat.

Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?
I don't have a bag, I have a floor where I keep everything. Currently, I am out of all my good make up. :,( (tear) but mascara, loreal kind, that's where it's at baby!!
Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.

Day 13 – Your favorite musician and why?
Ingrid Michaelson. She is soo real. She actually can sing, and she sings about real stuff, not crap.
Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
GREY'S ANATOMY. 'Nuf said.
Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Let's be real here, my phone. I love my phone. I will admit it.
Day 16 – Your celebrity crush.

Biebs? No. Christian Bale? He's attractive, no. I love my Grey's men. McDreamy, and McSteamy. (Patrick Dempsey and Eric Dane)

Day 17 – A photo of you and your family.
Ok, Tanner is gone, and my parents aren't there. But come on! This is wonderful.
Day 18 – Something you crave a lot.

Day 19 – Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad.
My music. Lately, Somewhere Only We Know has been a big one. Crazy by Gnarls Barkley, Barley something, Famous Last Words, Badman's Songs, Woman in Chains, T. Swift, all the good stuff.
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
"World Gone Crazy" is actually a line from the previously mentioned song "Woman in Chains". I found it fitting because on a daily bases I am called "crazy" by someone. Therefore, I thought, my world has gone crazy :)
Day 21 – Put your iPod on shuffle. List the first 10 songs that play.
Death of Titanic (yeah, I LOVE the Titanic soundtrack), Kiss and Tell by The one and only J. Beibs, Speak Now by T. Swift, Goodnight Song by Tears for Fears, My Heart Will Go On (Ok realize that my phone only has like 100 songs and I can't find my ipod so it won't be a huge variety!), Somebody to Love-- the Biebs. (What did I JUST say?!), Head Over Feet, Alanis Morissette, Perfect- Alanis Morisette, Breathe- Taylor Swift, Forget You, Glee.
Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Dear... You are idiot. Except, *you* didn't hurt *me* recently, *you* hurt *me* exactly one year ago YOU MADE A BAD CHOICE. Dummy. Love, Me.
Day 23 – 15 facts about you.
1. I have a wonderful memory. 2. My "step"dad adopted me. 3. My "maiden" name is Plautz 4. I love candy 5. I was talking to Joe Roberts on Facebook just barely. 6. I have 8 pairs of converse. 7. I am stressed about Prom. 8. I have to read Grapes of Wrath 9. My room is a disaster 10. Yard work makes me cry. 11. I am a Mac fan, hate the PC 12. Blue Powerade is my favorite drink 13. I am moving to Maryland June 1! 14. I haven;t run for like 3 weeks. 15. I want my hair to grow.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Exactly one year ago this was taken. It's my favorite picture ever. I just like it. 

Day 25 – Nicknames you have and why you have them.
Maysonater-- Tanner and CJ just have called me that for soo long. May May-- Well Taylor Holbrook was Tay Tay, and KC is Shee Shee so they gave me May May, Mays- hmmm it is a shortened version of my name.
Day 26 – A baby picture
That's not me. That's my little sister. hahahaha she is a 4th of July baby.

Day 27 – A picture of something that makes you happy.
Lydia Nielsen. We are talking on the phone and its 1:27 in the morning. 

Day 28 – Your favorite movie.
Hard to pick. I can't ever decide. I don't really have one specific favorite. Right now,  my favorite movie is Tangled :)  But not my favorite of all time. That I just do not know.

Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Growing my hair. It's effortless, but I love growing my hair. I want my hair to grow so so bad. Too bad it can't be long for Prom. 

Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today  

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

it's a typical tuesday night

Except really-- it wasn't.

Spring break so far has been an adventure.

Friday- Well that was Stanford's birthday party. We went to the beach resort. We surfed, played games, and I even sung some karaoke. After I called Sarah, and we went to the outdoor concert, happened to be Ryan Shuppe and the Rubberband. I loved them. So talented. After that, we went to Paige's and watched Hot Rod. Well they did. I fell asleep. :)

Saturday- So... Oh yeah. Travis Tyler got his wisdom teeth out so Amanda and I took him some Jamba Juice. He was abnormally normal and fine. So we were there for a little. Later that night we went to Lauren's play "The Titanic". That was good. We met some kid named Josh. Hahaha. After Cf, Amanda and I just went to my house. Andy and Stookey randomly visited. That was pleasant. ;)

Sunday- Sunday School Games, napping, my grandmas house, Laurens house, playing nertz, McKann and Sarah coming and visiting. Oh yeah.

Monday- Babysitting. Cafe Rio. Bowling 3 rounds with Sarah. Ice Cream. Visiting KC. Yeah.

Tuesday- Oh Tuesday! So Sarah and I took the kids to Chuck E Cheese. That was fun. Then we went shopping with her mom, sister and brother. I love both Ashley and Noah so much. Pretty great. Then we went to Taco Time. Yummy. After we were sitting at Sarah's house and Stuart called. Travis, Connor Goodwin, Bryson Seifert, and Stuart were going to the Hot Pots in Heber and wanted us to go. So... We did. After waving to some "friendly people" we got into the warm water and were having a good time. Basically, we see a car, a couple of flashlights, and yep, you guessed it, it was the cops. Apparently, we were trespassing and the "friendly" people were the owners and instead of being normal and telling us to get off their property, they just called the cops on us. So we all got a citation, and will have to pay a fee. Yeah. At first I was freaking out, but after I called my mom, and the boys were joking a lot, I was fine. Mayson Astle got a citation. I never had that planned. Ever. But hey, how funny is that? So now my mom calls me her "little criminal" and I have some seriously good things to laugh about. (that is, until I find out how much money I must pay!!!) 

#9-Do something rebellious. That's good enough for me. Check. 

And today is Wednesday. We shall see what it will bring. Last night I had 2 dreams about me forgetting that the elections packets were due and I couldn't run for Student Government. It was a nightmare. AHH!!! I would dream of something like that. I am Mayson. 

Sunday, April 10, 2011

oh it is wonderful to me.

Today at church, Dania, Shannon and I were talking about Titanic. Dania said, "It's a good play, but you don't take home anything with it-- except sadness and history" At the time, I agreed. But the more and more I think about it, the more I realized what I took home.

"All things that are unfair about life can be made right through the atonement of Jesus Christ" - Preach My Gospel

That quote keeps coming to mind. The Titanic has always been one of the most fascinating events in history to me. Here you have the largest moving thing on the earth at the time, thousands of people excited to go on board, a ship that is "unsinkable", and within hours, it sinks to the ocean floor because of a giant mass of ice in the middle of the ocean.  People said "God himself can't sink this ship" People underestimated the power of our Heavenly Father. And what did God do about that? He sunk the ship. But yesterday, I couldn't stop thinking about how unfair it was that the rich got to live. Not because of the stupid class system, that's one thing, but they are the ones who most likely forsook God. They are the ones who thought themselves better, higher then the one supreme being in the universe, and they lived.

After the play, Amanda and I started talking about the unfair things of this world. The holocaust, Rwandan genocide, human trafficking, all horrific things, and we questioned tragedies and why God allows them.  It's part of life, I suppose.

The birth, life and death of Jesus Christ is the most important thing in the history of the world. Through his atonement, sins can be made clean. I know that. But the atonement is much more than that. All of our sorrows, sicknesses, anything unfair, anything incorrect, anything imperfect can be perfected through Christ. "Trust in the Lord and believe in good things to come."

That's what I took home from the Titanic.

Friday, April 8, 2011

gotta get down on friday.

Mayso and Marclo. 
I wish I could put up  music only (not a video), for this post. I found the recording of Marc Cabanilla singing at McKenzie Slater's funeral. Oh my gosh, it is gorgeous. This makes me miss Marcy (marc E not Marcy) so much. Marclo was my bud. Before he left we would just hang out all the time. I would have wonderful talks with him, play midnight monopoly (um.. spring break? someone who loves me should do that with me), and watch movies in my little tunnel cubby thing in my garage. ( I watched Remember Me with him. Luckily he left before I bawled at 4AM) Missionaries are great, but I definitely have my moments where I miss them like crazy. I definitely miss my boys today. (Tanner, CJ and Marclo). Oh my gosh, they are going to home sooo soon. Tanner and CJ that is.

Some people are just so nice to me. Rachel Chow and Yon Soo Park, I am talking to you. I just feel like every time I see you, you are way to freaking nice to me, and I don't even know what I did to deserve your niceness. Pretty much I love you both. Can we party? Yeah, I have genius plans. 

I wish I could expand my vocabulary. Today in English we were reading the prompt thing of our essay. 3 or 4 times Jake leaned over to me and asked me if I knew what that word meant, oh not in a nice way might I add. He truly and completely makes fun of me all the time. I am never allowing him to read my essay again. He laughed, out loud.  Not very nice. At least Elliot doesn't make fun of my horribleness too. I love Elliot. First, I met him in my Seminary class. I heard his name, and I instantly realized I LOVE that name. Then one day I was sitting in English and I realized he was in that class. Best realization ever. Now he sits on my table and it's great. 

Two words: Spring Break. I don't even think I am doing anything fun, but hey, no school. PARTY. No but really, PARTY. 

Taylor Holbrook is the best girl. I LOVE HER, 

Today in math, Sweety said that if our homework was done, we could get extra credit. BEST MOMENT EVER. (Ok, hyperbole, but still. . . ) No homework, nothing during break, nothing during class. Yes.

Then in yearbook, we had a meeting with the staffers of next year. (That are on it now). I love those guys and I am excited for next year.

That's it. I don't care if Monday's blue. Tuesday's gray and Wednesday too. Thursday I don't care about you. It's Friday, I'm in love.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

super human good looks, always had it-- born with it!

Math confuses me, so I decided to blog instead. 

One more day Mayson. You have one more day until spring break. You got this. You can do it.

Then it is the week of Prom. That's strange. This is one of the things I have dreamed about my whole life, and it is in two weeks? It doesn't seem real. I have a dress, a date, but still. . . it's prom. And then it will be over, another story I have to tell, another dance I have been to, and another thing off of my list of things I would like to do with my life. Call me a girl, but most the things on this list have to do with boys. (or education hahaha. For example first kiss, first date, prom, graduating, marriage, graduating college, having kids, I mean, come on I have a very weird theme of my life here, it's called I'm clearly a girl) Pretty soon, more and more things will be crossed off this list. And then what? I will refer to my new favorite movie "Tangled" that's what's so great, you find a new dream.  

After Prom (which don't ask me how I feel about it, depends on the exact minute of the day), there is elections week. A year ago, I decided that I was going to run for student body president. All year I have tried to make friends with freshmen, going to different activities and meeting new people. But it comes down to this one week. Let's be real here, everyone running is qualified. Everyone running is super great, and everyone running is my friend. So-- I am nervous as heck. There is no obvious winner. The results will be a surprise to everyone I think. Part of me says, "Why not run for something else? You are running against Christian Garrett, Eric Sheffield and Ali Harrison, three of the nicest people at out school." But over and over again, I have debated with myself. I have decided I will regret not running if I don't. If I win, I am the happiest girl. If I don't hopefully I will get appointed. If I don't get appointed, it's just high school and yearbook will be fun anyway. We'll see. I hope it works out. If not, I have decided now, it is not the Lord's way. 

Then one last stressful busy awful thing to think about. Half marathon May 7. What the heck was I thinking? I do that. Finish school. And leave to Maryland June 1. 

Despite everything I complain about, and despite how worried and stressed I am, I have a good life, and I am a very lucky girl. 

Monday, April 4, 2011

i'll brush and brush and brush and brush my hair.

prettiest cartoon character ever. 
Today in English, Travis Tyler and I were singing Tangled the whole time. Pretty much the best movie ever. I love it. Travis is so funny. He waited up to buy it on iTunes the minute he could, put in on his ipod and watched it the very night it came out. How stinking funny is that? 

"7am the usual morning line up...." (That was basically the only line I knew, Travis knew them all hahaha)

I am a happy girl lately. I still want elections to be over. But still, I have high hopes for April. 

Catie Brown is such a cool girl. Did you guys know that? First, have you seen her clothes? Today she was wearing the sweetest hat and the color of her shirt was genius. She also has some seriously good advice to give. I love that she is in my ward and we are buddies. I like her a lot. That was random, but it needed to be said.

I went and re-read my "Oh freaking well post" I make myself laugh. Everything I complained about didn't even happen. Lauren calls me the luckiest person alive. I would say so. For sure.

Conference was absolutely wonderful and amazing. I can't get over how perfect it was for me. So wonderful.

Hey, CF? I love you. Please remember you are a very important daughter of a Heavenly Father. 

"When you pray, pray for strength to help you carry on when your troubles come your way. When you dream, dream BIG."

Saturday, April 2, 2011

he smiles politely back at you.

Morp was so much fun. Definitely in my top dances, and my favorite girl's choice dances. I did kinda freak out at the end and went insane, crazy.... Yeah. But still, Stuart was such a fun date. He's truly a great kid. He put up with my crazy freak out, and I put up with his Jimmer arguments. Well kinda, I just went in the other room with my ice cream. I didn't mind. :) I kept forgetting I was on a date. That happens everytime I am at a dance. Then a slow song comes on and I am like "Oh yeah, where is my date?" Sorry boys. 

Prom is in less then 3 weeks. What the freak? I thought that I Prom time would never come in my lifetime. I specifically remember being little and thinking high school was some fantasy life where everything goes perfect. Man, Disney ruined me. :) According to Disney, boy likes girl, girl likes boy, something "tragic" happens, they fight and make up right in time for the dance. Oh Disney, you make me laugh. (Has anyone seen Starstruck? I was watching that the other day and I realized that the reason why high school will never satisfy me is because in Disney movies everything works out perfect) But hey, overall, even after my bit of a freak out last night and my fears that my mom will say something awful like she did last time, I am excited. Oh and speaking of my mother and Prom... Today she told me to wear my shoes from Valentines to Prom. I told her multiple times why I can't wear heels. Does she not understand, the boy just can't grow overnight?!

But mostly, I love this song. Um...Did anyone see that Grey's? OH MY HECK. That is in my top favorite episodes ever. Gosh, that was incredible. I loved it. 

Today, I realized I am a poet and I didn't even know it.

I also realized, yard work makes me cry. Yeah, I cried because of yard work. Hey Uncle Shee-shee? My girl emotions are really kicking in lately. What is wrong with me?! 

I went and saw that Hop movie. Eh.. it was ok. I laughed pretty hard. It was good. James Marsden is attractive, but also super corny. (hahaha, get my pun? like Corny Collins from Hairspray? I crack myself up)

Speaking of which, everyone should go to Yogurtland. It is heaven on earth. Yogurtland on earth. 

Conference makes me happy. Today, I definitely heard some amazing things and I can't wait to reread talks. Oh my, I seriously love conference. 

And one last thing, 3 months til T-bone gets home. I love that kid so much. See you in your neck of the woods buddy! Here I come! CJ... I miss you too. Sorry I won't be home to greet you. Please don't forget me. :) 
CJ. I miss you so so much. I love my 2nd brother so much.

tanner opening his call. 
last picture of me and the bones

That's all folks.