Saturday, February 25, 2012

sun shining down over me and you

The sun on my face.
Side walk chalk.
The beach.
Flip Flops. 
Lighter hair. 
Laying on the roof. 
Green grass.
Singles Ward.
Aspen Grove. 
California with my best friends. 
Horse Back Riding. 
Naps on the grass.
Moving out. 

Summer 2012, feel free to come anytime now. 

Thursday, February 23, 2012

sail through the changing ocean tide

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Wake up tomorrow and decide to be free. You'll discover a new joy you haven't felt in a long time.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

felt so lonely in your company

There I was, tapping again. It's this habit I have formed when I feel uncomfortable. How peculiar, I thought, I was in a room full of faces that used to be familiar. Conversations happened, but all I heard was noise. I did want to add to that awful sound. But it kept building and building. More, more, more, more, more, more. I screamed. On the inside,  of course. In that vision, everyone stared. The room froze. Suddenly, there I was in the middle of a room, everyone wanting me to say something, and I had nothing to add, nothing to offer. Silence. But it ended. No one was staring, no one was looking. I just blended. Invisible at best.

Isolated: to set or place apart; detach or separate so as to be alone.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

you get addicted to a certain kind of sadness

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know.

(best song ever)

Thursday, February 9, 2012

you're already the voice inside my head


Green :)

Sophie :)



The grass is greener on the other side in Maryland. 

I didn't appreciate that. 

I'm a completely different person because of my experiences there.

It was the best experience of my life so far.  

Despite the heat and the hard times, I'd kill to do it all over again.

(and maybe next time, I would connect with Tate a little better)

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

it's always darkest before the dawn

If Britney Spears can make it through 2007, you can make it through today.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

i wish you were a stranger

"I think it's the words you don't say that haunt you the longest" 

So I'm gonna be bold. I'm gonna say it. I'm gonna ask. I'm gonna accept the answers that come with it. I might regret it. But I think I've been holding it back for too long.  And I've been dying to know.

And isn't about time?

Saturday, February 4, 2012

your final lullaby

Months and months of unfinished thoughts. Words I never said. 


People call me the baby whisperer.

I knew it was going to be a long day ever since Cyrano died.

A memory tends to be much better than the actual moment.

Call me up.

who am i?

At least someone gets me.
“He wore is happiness like a mask and the girl had just run across the lawn with the mask and there was no way of going to knock on her door and ask for it back.”

I'm just done.

I believe that there is a moment in life when you look in the mirror and you genuinely wonder who that person is that has been staring back at you for all these years.

“I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith.”

it's all because of you that i'm through.

There are bridges you crossed you didn't know you crossed until you crossed. 

"I want so badly to believe that there is truth, that love is real"

"Everything I read was a reality"

Some days I just wonder what I did to the universe to make it hate me so badly. 


Don't hesitate. Don't be afraid.

We're all the same. 

All of the dishes pile up in the sink.

Mimi Hamblin, you made my day today. 

I love Megamind. 

Sometimes the hardest thing

For one moment, I love hearing the tick of my watch.

figuring out you and me is like doing a love autopsy.


"Don't make someone a priority if they only make you an option"

Sometimes I wonder if he forgot who I am.

17 Miracles kind of sort of changed my life

 why don't you remember?

But I think that everyone who wants more and better lives need to readjust their mindsets to realize how blessed we are.

Dude, I am 17 years old, I believe in mercy still!

Feelings and emotions are stupid things.

"It's over-- so get over it"

Google is absolutely NO help! 

Don't go.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

baffled king composing hallelujah.

All day I've been wondering why the universe hates me. 
Thinking of all the things that went wrong, aren't going my way and looking at everything that just isn't working out for me. 

4 months ago, her 10 year old son died of a disease he had been battling his whole life. 
4 days ago, her husband suffered a heart-attack out of the blue and passed away. 
In just a short period of time, not only did she have to bury a child, she had to bury her best friend, love, and support. 

Please keep this family in your prayers at night. 

How could I possibly so selfish?