Saturday, October 29, 2011

let's get together and feel alright

First term is over,
my birthday is coming,
and I had a delicious cup of wassail tonight. 
Plus on top of all of that, Christmas music season is coming up quickly. 

life is good.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

the world was sleeping

  Time: 11:59 PM. Song: Human by The Killers Activity: Psych Redos

Time: 12:29 AM. Song: Last Kiss by Taylor Swift. Activity: Psych Redos

Time: 1:02 AM. Song: Teardrops on My Guitar by Taylor Swift. Activity: Psych Redos

Time: 1:43 AM. Song: Bet On It from HSM2 Activity: Cleaning the Kitchen

Time: 2:17 AM Song: Last Christmas by the Glee Cast Activity: Superhero Psych Extra Credit

Time: 2:48 AM Song: Sort Of by Ingrid Michaelson Activity: Psych Notes

Time: 3:12 AM Song: Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol Actvity: Psych Redos

Time: 3:42 AM Song: The Man Who Can’t Be Moved by The Script. Activity: Psych Redos

Time: 4:02 AM Song: Well no more songs, listening to the Old Testament. Activity: Seminary Reading

Monday, October 24, 2011

when it's all too late

See those stairs? Me too. I spent literally hours and hours on those stairs. It was the one of the few places that I would get reception when I lived in Maryland.  I miss those stairs. 

I've been known to be one of those people who don't appreciate things while I have them.
I'm a "don't know what you've got 'til it's gone type of girl" 
It's a problem.

What if you woke up today with only the things you thanked God for yesterday? 

So let's be grateful today for what we have today instead of being thankful tomorrow for the things we had yesterday. 

Sunday, October 23, 2011

something keeps me holding onto nothing

My birthday is coming. 

It'll be just another day in your life. It'll mean nothing to you. 

I'm gonna pretend like it doesn't hurt me. I'll crack a joke or two about it. 

You weren't there then, why would you be now? 

I will never understand you. 

My question is why do I allow you to hurt me still?
It's not fair.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

a wish your heart makes

Sometimes it's a dandelion, or a birthday candle or a shooting star. Sometimes it's just a prayer in your heart, or a hope in your mind. 
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Don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart.

Friday, October 21, 2011

i swear i'm not doing anything

Signs that you are procrastinating:

Exhibit A: You comment 80 times on your own facebook status. (And still counting!) 
Exhibit B: You watch little children TV shows. 
Exhibit C: Facebook, Pinterest, Instagram and Blogger haven't changed at all since you last went on. 
Exhibit D: You get off the internet on your computer then get on it on your phone.
Exhibit E: You walk around your house singing the Winnie the Pooh theme song. 
Exhibit F: You are able to create masterpieces such as this one.


come away with me

You could take me to a beach, and we could listen to the ocean and I would enjoy it. 
But if you knew me any better, you would take me...

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Thursday, October 20, 2011

step one, he says "we need to talk"

Somebody please explain my life to me. Thanks.


Monday, October 17, 2011

falling into memories of you

(It's time for me to box up all my memories and ship them to the middle of nowhere.)

Sunday, October 16, 2011

promise me that all you say is true

(I admit it,  I love you)

Saturday, October 15, 2011

it's what we needed to have a good time

That great moment when: 

The girl in your seminary class tells you that you could always grow up to be a nun

There are first time kids in the temple and they are nervous, and the dad baptizing the little boy stops and gives his son a kiss on the forehead.

 You wake up at 2:30 AM and you have a million texts from your best friend reminding you once again that sophomore year was awesome and you used to be decent looking.

Judge Frolo dies in Hunchback.

You can sing along to Hunchback and even remember the Latin parts.

You win the football game.

You look in the mirror after getting your lashes filled. 

When you yell out the windows at runners on the road, and the next day a teacher tells you they "saw" you on their run.

You and Kirsti find out you got Academic All State

You are starving and Ms. Jardine gives you donuts and Sutherland gives you cup of noodles.

You walk down stairs and there is banana bread.

Aaron, Kat and Jake put up with you after the choir concert.

Ben Li tells you that you can throw the garbage can and he will pick up all the garbage.

Steffany walks to you in the drama room, but only follows the edges.

You find cool things at DI.

"That didn't rhyme"

You find out that the weird recording on Jake's phone was actually Jake talking and you wonder what he ever does with his life.

 Iszy wears the awesome marshmallow jacket.

 You start singing "Our Song" with Isz, in the ugliest way possible.

You are 15, 20 minutes late to Musical Theater and you don't get marked tardy.

Eric takes your candids for you.

Macall starts cheering weird on the field and the football player gives her the strangest face.

(I love great moments.)

Friday, October 14, 2011

good night moon will find the mouse

Right now I have a few options:

fly south for the winter

(goodnight forever world)

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

you've been on my mind

"If you asked me for my heart, there's no way that I'll say no."

(i like you)

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

i see you drive 'round town

Today I opened the fridge and found some strawberries. And ever since then, all I can imagine is standing at the round-a-bout chucking them at cars as they drive by with my little siblings. It sounds like the funnest activity ever.

Just saying. . .

Sunday, October 9, 2011

like a comet pulled from orbit

"I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn. And we are led to those who help us most to grow, if we let them, and we help them in return. 
Because I knew you, I have been changed for good."

(I miss the Martinis family.)


just stay this little

I just want to stop her from growing....
before she gets hurt. before she gets scared. before she's alone.

She's so little. Right now her biggest problems are when someone steals her spot that her friend saved her from the lunch room.....
because in the future it could be someone stealing her heart. 

I want to grab her tight and never let go....
before she allows herself to let somebody else hold her close. 

Right now she puts on dresses to dress up, she has to sneak putting make up on. She is clothed in innocence and laughter....
I don't want her to dress in any other way for any other person besides herself. 

She doesn't need to get caught between any boy drama besides her brothers, she doesn't need to fall in love, she doesn't need to grow. She doesn't need to make life complicated.....

so we'll think of a wonderful thought, take the second star to the left, and enter into Neverland.

"To you everything's funny, you have nothing to regret. I'd give all I'd have honey, if you could stay like that"

She doesn't need to grow up, she has me. That's all a baby sister could need.

Friday, October 7, 2011

the freckles in our eyes are mirror images

I love it when there is someone else in the room who understands the phrase "I'm running on stress, no food, and no sleep", can still  put a smile on their face, and help you run the whole show.

Thank goodness for all the other people in student government. I could never have done it without them.

(cue dance music, party party the assembly is over!)
p a r t y i s o v er p e o p l e. 

(cue damien rice pandora, it's time for a nap)
g o o d n i g h t. s e e y o u a t t h e g a m e.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

trust me, you must be hated

I hate my English teacher.

A "B" seriously? 

Just because you hate me doesn't mean you can just give me bad grades.

Monday, October 3, 2011

what i want, you got

I just want a hot dog
...or a sandwich
...or both.

Running makes me hungry.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

so long to you

whatever happened to unconditional love?

your voice like nails on a chalkboard

You push, you shove.
You yell and scream.
You tell me what I think, what I do, how I do things is wrong.
You call me lame, dumb, and stupid.
You never take my side.
I'm never good enough, fast enough, or skinny enough for you.
You know when I am weak, and you knock me down when I'm there.
You blame everything on me.
You pick on me.

"Sometimes, it's never quite enough"

(and after all of this, you tell me that I am not the victim)

I'm giving up.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

can anybody find me somebody....?

You know what I need?

I need someone to ask how I am, but genuinely care. 
I need someone who will listen to me vent about whatever is on my mind, doesn't tell me to change my attitude, to be positive, to tell me how to think. 
I need a listener. 
I need someone unbiased, but still understands what I am saying (So that makes finding someone difficult)
I need someone who can understand that I am annoyed with x, and y, and z but knows I still love x, y, and z, but understands that my frustration is valid. 

I'm sick, I'm tired, and honestly I'm sick and tired of life.
I'm stressed, I'm worried, I'm lonely and I'm afraid.

I need someone.

(At least it's conference weekend)