Thursday, December 9, 2010


You’ve been my golden best friend now with post-demise at hand, can’t go to you for consolation Cause we’re off limits during this transition. This grief overwhelm me. It burns in my stomach, and I can’t stop bumping into things. I thought we’d be simple together. I thought we’d be happy together. Thought we’d be limitless together. I thought we’d be precious together
But I was sadly mistaken. You’ve been my soulmate and mentor. I remembered you the moment I met you. With you, I knew god’s face was handsome . With you, I suffered an expansion. This loss is numbing me; it pierces my chest, and I can’t stop dropping everything I thought we’d be sexy together. Thought we’d be evolving together. I thought we’d have children together . I thought we’d be family together. But I was sadly mistaken. If I had a bill for all the philosophies I shared- If I had a penny for all the possibilities I presented- If I had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air- My wealth would render this no less severe. I thought we’d be genius together. I thought we’d be healing together. I thought we’d be growing together. Thought we’d be adventurous together.But I was sadly mistaken. Thought we’d be exploring together. Thought we’d be inspired together. I thought we’d be flying together. Thought we’d be on fire together. But I was sadly mistaken


  1. mayson. it IS possible. i promise, you may cry everyday, and when your not, want to. but sooner or later, if you focus on what you can control, the things that you can't control seem to fall into place without your hand in thim. have faith that god knows best, and when it seems to much to bear for another second, pray. i love you. you can do it.

  2. Jackie! That was exactly what I needed to hear. Thanks so much. I love you too.