sometimes we just forget

The cool breeze flows- it's November.

Fall leaves on the ground.

I'm falling

further

down

to

you

by and by

again and again.

I remember November like it was yesterday.

I hope by next November there is a new you to create new memories.

The silence fills the room with thunders of contention.

For I am afraid.

I am nothing to you.

Dead.

Gone.

Alone.

All my fault.

This pain is all my fault.

But I am strong.

Everything about this month reminds me of you.

The smell.

Each day.

The weather.

Everything.

I appreciate all you have done for me in the last year.

I truly do.

You helped me a lot.

But you also failed me miserably.

You lied.

You said you would be there-

no

matter

what

I

did.

But you are gone because of what I did.

For it is November.

Remember November.

I always will.

And you are the memory that haunts it.

PS. Thanks for the birthday wish, I thought you were done ignoring me. Stop blaming me for everything. You could do something every once in a while.