days go by

There has just been something about the last few days. Somewhat good, somewhat bad. I don't know.

Here's to the last few days of my life--

• Yogurtland with Shannon and Blonde haired, wannabe Mayson, Lauren
• Talking to Aaron. Have you ever known someone who no matter what mood you are in, they can make you laugh? That's Aaron. 
• Looking at cars with my father
• SANDWICHES!!! Only my favorite food. Probably. I love love love love love sandwiches. 
• Hobby Lobby with Lydia. We are going to be the cutest house wives in the world and the most obnoxious house wives ever. I can't believe we didn't get kicked out.
• Working and getting my life cleaned up
• My left ear doesn't work unless you pull on it.
• Getting my physical-- cookie dough, taquitos, and L-Fabes
• Being the ONLY kid in Sunday School. Luckily Hannah and Megan came late
• The awkward moment when the Bishop came to set our new presidency apart and it took about 5 minutes to explain to Hannah and Megan that we were getting a new presidency. 
• Anne Olson's "OH CRAP" when the Bishop walked in.
• The class singing "Scripture Power" and the bishop walks in AGAIN.
• Sleeping for hours then remembering how I was taught in Seminary not to lounge around all Sunday. Oops. 
• L-Fabes new ringtone-- 'Hallelujah Chorus'-- her name in my phone is God. Classic.  

Looking forward to Stud Gov camp tomorrow and PRE-REGION on THURSDAY!!!!

Thank you XC. Thank you.

don't stop running.

 

All I can say is that at times I wonder why the heck I joined cross country.  I usually wonder that when I am running. :) But at the end of the day, running laps for 4 hours, PR-ing your mile time, and knowing that you did it-- it's worth it. I get to spend the next two months, every dang day, with these girls, I am so lucky. They are the best. 

and yes, i am exhausted.

far away in the west.

Sarah pokes fun at me (kinda) that my blog is "churchy" Well, that's me I suppose. So I won't go on and on and on-----

17 Miracles is probably my favorite movie ever. See it. Please.

 

During the movie this message came to mind. The Church is True. Need I say more? 

That's all I will have to say. I knew nothing really about the movie going in and I loved it so much. Welp I feel changed.

I also saw The Help today. That, my dear children, was excellent too.

i want you back.

Unlike Lauren, I am very proud of Cameron for his decision he made of leaving "The Glee Project." Although he was my favorite and I wanted him to win, I am proud that he had the courage to stand up for what he believed in. However, I am bummed because they did tell him that they would write a part for him that kept his values, but I admire his courage to say that he didn't deserve it if the others were willing to work hard.

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It takes courage to stand up for what you believe in, especially in this world today. I will miss him, but honestly, I was truly inspired. He was able to stand for something in front of the creator of Glee. That's saying something. What's a few friends, or some kids at high school? I think his decision will go a long way for the handful of Christian kids around the world, who truly believe in their morals.

Go Cameron! I am support your choice, and I hope your life turns out well. You deserve it. Thanks for the example you set to me and millions of others. 

Except, my title still stands still, I want you back on the show. I do, you are adorable.

are we human?

I once heard (and don't ask me where, I honestly cannot remember)...

"We are not humans having spiritual experiences, we are spirits having human experiences"

Holy freak yes, exactly. Whether it's running a ragnar and wanting to die, or getting your heart broken, or having an ear infection--it's just temporary, that's just a list of human experiences we feel. Worrying about college, the yearbook, ACT scores, who is going to ask you to Homecoming/if you will be asked--it's human, and it's pointless (i mean, all of those things are in the near future, but not close enough to panic.) And as we have all of these human experiences, we tend to forget that we are truly spirits of a living God. We turn so human, it's robotic. So when you think about all those times your Sunday School, YM/YW leader, Seminary Teacher, and possibly even parents have drawn that line on the board and then fill one little dot on the line representing out lives,  truly think about really how short life is. 

We need to live it up.

But not only that, when we have those moments when we just feel like dying and wanting to cry, we need to keep going. Just because you have run a mile, and the start of the next one is rough, maybe even uphill, maybe even on 9th east for what seems like eternity, you will finish that course, and you will realize that you have millions of miles ahead. But don't worry, we don't need to breathe in Heaven. 9th east sounds worth it if you know that afterwords you can run as many miles and be free and out of pain. 

But you got to make it past the hard part, or you will never make it to the good one.

her white blank page

Everyone is telling you that you can do it, except the little voice in your head that's screaming that you can't. You want to believe you can, but you just aren't ready. You can't imagine being able to do it alone. So you pretend like everything is fine, like you can handle what's in front of you. You are afraid, but you really can't tell anyone how afraid you are. Will you ever be good enough? Will you ever know what to do on your own?

I simply do not know what I am doing.

i had no idea of the state we were in.

There are a million questions I will never ask.

There are a million answers  I will never get.

There are a million words I will never say. 

There are a million words that I will never hear.

There are a million memories that I will never have.